Fluffy Friday

I feel like this is probably the first week since starting all of this that “real life” has kinda hit us, in both good and bad ways. We have had a pretty boring few weeks where there hasn’t been too much going on and we where really able to control our environments and could make workouts a priority.

This past week has been kinda crazy. Between Charlotte’s birthday party on Sunday, her actual birthday on Tuesday, preparations for a bachelorette party tomorrow, a family full of head/chest colds and then (of course) Parker starts vomiting on Wednesday. Charlotte started last night, then it was my turn. ūüė•

Anyway. Despite everything, we both lost weight! Which is just a good reminder for me that just because I’m zig zagging on my path a bit doesn’t mean I need to fall off and go running through the woods. Did anyone get that? I just meant that even though I couldn’t weigh everything, or get an exact calorie count , or get my sick butt off the couch to workout, doesn’t mean that I could give myself permission to stop trying. I didn’t stop caring and just ate whatever. I tried to enter my calories with a best guess. I know that they were off but I felt it was more important for me keep doing it and for it to be wrong rather than to just skip it and say I’ll start again tomorrow. It’s too easy to give up that way.

I do regret not working out more. I miss the endorphins. I need that awesome mood boost that comes with a good sweat. Although there wasn’t a whole lot of working out, we did start kickboxing again. I had started kickboxing before I got pregnant with Charlotte and I loved it. For those of you that don’t know, Matt used to be a women’s kickboxing instructor, so I basically have my very own trainer. ūüėČ I kept saying the whole time, “Why has it taken us so long to get back into this?!?!” It is so much fun and it is an incredible workout. If you have never tried it, I suggest you find a gym with a free class to try, like right now.

Like I said before, even with a pretty crazy week we were both able to stick close enough to our plans and do the best we could with following our calorie counts and we both had a weight loss! Yay! Go Team!


  • This week -1.2
  • Total -12.6

(I didn’t hit my goal but I’m okay with that all things considering, Next week!)


  • This week -0.2
  • Total -12.2

Fluffy Friday

Before I get to the (good) fluffy news, there are a few things I need to note.

Now, I’ve had a bunch of blog ideas floating in my head for a couple of weeks now, but getting them out has been quite an issue. Motivation to do much of anything has been gone. Mostly because of this…snow

Yep. It is April 19th and we have gotten over a foot of effing snow in the past 48 hours, and that doesn’t include the 6ish inches we got at the start of the week! I’ve got such a horrid case of cabin fever I don’t even know what to do with myself. We all desperately want to be outside but it just keeps SNOWING!!! There is also this BIG EVENT coming up in 22 days that is supposed to take place outside…. I know that everything will workout perfectly, even if there is still snow on the ground but COME ON! MOTHER NATURE PLEASE CUT US A BREAK!

Also? Charlotte turns one(!!!!) on Tuesday. We are having her party on Sunday and I’m just in a daze with how fast time has gone. I’ll have a ton of pictures to post of the party and her 1 year shoot next week so I will¬†apologize¬†now for the photo storm that is coming. My plans of an outdoor shoot have been shot to shit though. Grrrr.

On to the good news! We lost weight this week! On Monday I re-programmed my calorie counter after reading post after post of stories that¬†I could have written myself about their stalling weight loss. We all feel we are doing exactly what we should be doing but nothing is happening, or even worse gaining weight. There really is nothing more frustrating than being 100% dedicated and driven, doing everything that you think you should be doing but then still gaining weight. The problem we all shared is that we were not eating enough. I know, I know, I know! I’m a broken record. I keep talking about this week after week but this time I was diligent about actually eating all of my calories (within 100+/-).

I was determined to do it full out this week even if it meant that I gained 5 lbs because I was eating too much. The only way to find out if my¬†suspicions¬†were right was to¬†accurately¬†test it. Even though it felt like the opposite of what I should be doing, I stuck with it.¬†It might sound¬†ridiculous¬†but it hasn’t been easy to eat more. I’m going against everything I’ve ever been told about losing weight. Going against every perception I have about weight loss. “Everyone” says to eat less & workout more. Easy right? Not so much. At least not for me. I’m still working on finding that input/output sweet spot for my body but I’m still trying and I’m making progress! That is a huge¬†achievement, and I have to keep reminding myself of that.

I have never kept with it like this before. I have always given up by now. This time feels so different then every other time before when I have tried to make these changes, it is hard to explain. I don’t know if it is because Matthew is doing it with me and having that support is so amazing and has made a world of difference for sure. But I also feel that knowing we are done (snip, snip) having babies has really changed my entire mindset. The “I’m going to get pregnant and I’ll have to start all over, again.”¬†isn’t there anymore nagging at me. This is the body that I’m going to have for the rest of my life and another baby isn’t going to push me back to the starting line. After a collective 8 months of trying to get pregnant, 18ish months of being pregnant, and 21 months of breastfeeding, I finally(!) get to have total control over my body.¬†

Now for next week, my goal (the 1st of my short-term goals) is to make it back to ONEderland! (2.8 to go!) That is a place that I haven’t been to in a very, very, VERY long time.

This weeks weigh-in


  • This week -1.6 lbs
  • Total -11.4 lbs


  • This week -1.6 lbs
  • Total -12 lbs

Fluffy Friday

Remember this from Wednesday?

Well, I got this one last night.


I have no idea what an “amazing number of calories” actually is but apparently I’ve been busting my ass on a¬†consistent¬†basis and I think that¬†deserves¬†a HELL YEAH! Or if you’re my husband, you bust out in some Alicia Keys “This girl is on fire…”

I love him ūüôā

Anyway, so the issue is I’m not losing weight! Matthew keeps saying that he can see my body changing but I’m just confused as to why the scale isn’t moving. I keep going back to perhaps I’m not eating enough. I know that might not make sense so I’ll try explaining my reasons and¬†hopefully¬†someone can tell me if I’m crazy or not.

My daily calorie allowance is about 1680 and because I’m eating mostly lean¬†protein and fresh fruit, veggies, and some whole grains, I was having trouble eating my whole calorie allowance. I’ve started taking 1 1/2 or 2 servings of protein, adding in¬†hummus¬†or flax or even just adding a glass of milk or a string cheese, to help me get all of my calories in. The problem comes when I’m working out. I’m not able to workout until my kids go to bed at night. By that time I have eaten supper and met my calorie allowance, but after I workout I’m somewhere between 400-900 calories under my daily allowance. Now I¬†certainly¬†don’t want to sit down and eat 900 calories right before I go to bed so I just try to have a snack but I still end up being significantly under.

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Note the numbers across the bottom. Those are the number of calories I was under for the week…

Now I know could try to compensate for my workout burn throughout the day but I can’t always¬†guarantee¬†that I’ll get my workout in. If Matt is working late and Charlotte wont go to bed it’s not really an option. I don’t want to be sitting there, 500 calories over budget, and nothing I can do about it.

I could get up in the morning before the kids do and just get it done. This is the ideal solution. I just suck getting out of bed early and I have yet to convince myself it’s a good idea. Also, Charlotte is teething and sleeping like crap so I kinda take¬†advantage¬†of any sleep I can get.

I picked up some Muscle Milk¬†at Costco today and I think I’m going to give that a try. That way I’ll have something that I can have after my evening workouts that my body can actually use and it will help with reaching my net calories.

Weight loss is all about trial and error. I haven’t had much luck with what I have been doing these past couple of weeks so I’m¬†tweaking¬†things just a bit to see if that helps. If anyone has any advice, please I’d love to hear it. Am I not eating enough? Am I eating too much? Thoughts?

Our weigh-in


  • This week -.4 lbs (again)
  • Total -9.8 lbs


  • This week -1.6 lbs (YAY!)
  • Total -10.4 lbs